because of me and in spite of me

throughout my day i think of that country song "you're gonna miss this" often. the lyrics are something like this "you're gonna miss this, you're gonna want this back, you're gonna wish these days hadn't gone by so fast". everytime i hear it i cry because i know that it is true.

one day i am going to miss

*waking up to find a child in my bed

*breaking up fights

*having their friends over to play

*being a chef, chauffeur, and a maid

*their little voices saying 'mommy' and 'i love you'

*the hugs and kisses they so generously give me now

*them wanting me to play with them

*story time at the library with meggie

*playing the wii with dallin

*hearing their unabashed laughter that comes all the way from their toes

*the fact that right now they need me

one day they will leave my house and their loud ruckus noise will leave with them being replaced by deafening silence. i hope i can appreciate everyday i have with them.

i hope i am a good example to them. i know they learn more by the example you set for them then the words you tell them. at the end of everyday i look back and wish i would have done a few things differently. i hope they forgive me for my shortcomings. i hope they know how much i love being their mommy. it is all i ever wanted to be. i hope they gain a testimony of the gospel for themselves but know that their mother has a strong testimony as well. i hope they know there is nothing i love more in this world then them and their father. i hope they grow into the wonderful, loving, noble people they are meant to be, because of me and in spite of me.