most days i love my job as a stay at home mommy but every once in awhile i find myself clinging with both hands to the end of my rope feeling like at any moment i may loose my grip on reality. unfortunately, these last couple of days have been like this and i have been filled with frustration. the constant needs of little kids, cleaning up a million messes a day, answering a bagillion questions a day, taking care of a little boy who just got his tonsils and adnoids out and the isolation of being in a small town without an easy escape to target can be exhausting. not to mention the fact that i have not had a solid night sleep in 3 years! i was feeling tired and i must confess a bit grumpy. please tell me that i am not the only person who feels like this. please tell me i am not the only one who thinks the word "mommy" said for the 1,943rd time in one day by whiny children sounds like nails on a chalkboard! and on top of everything else i had to make dinner!!
i had just finished watching a biography on Giada De Laurentiis (chef on food network). her family said that from the time she was little she loved to help her family cook in the kitchen so when megan came running in wanting to help me cook i decided i should not worry about the extra messes she would make for me but that i should try to cultivate her love of cooking.
once we got dinner on the table i asked her "megan, do you want to be a chef when you grow up?"
she looked up at me with her big brown eyes and said, "no mommy, i want to be just like you."
needless to say i felt shameful for the way i had been feeling and all my frustration melted away.
my heart swelled with the love i have for my family and i felt the weight of my responsibility to be their mother squarely on my shoulders.
i'm sure that i will have other days when i feel frustrated but i hope i can remember that i have 2 little ones who look to me as an example. i want megan to know that there is no greater job than that as a mother. it may not be the most glamorous and while i do believe that it is the hardest job in the world it is also the most important and the most rewarding.
i am thankful for the sweet reminders my children give me.
4 comments:
I will be relating soon. :) Glad your little Meggie reeled you back in to keep it all in perspective. That's part of a kid's job, don't ya think?! Cute story.
i felt like i was reading the story of my life!!!!! your little is too sweet. you must being doing a GREAT job, if she wants to be you when she grows up!!!!
it was nice catching up on all your post. haven't been blogging in awhile. been on facebook toooooo much. you should get an account so we can chit chat more. hope all is well!!!!!! =0)
Ahhhh, Meggie! But why do they have to push you right to the edge before they say/do something cute?
That is so sweet!
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